Monday, December 24, 2012

Fighting with Lizards

Frankly, I honestly have no idea what it looks like from the outside, because from the inside, my transition into the art world is still a panic inducing hot mess. I don't often share these thoughts and struggles with the outside world, because I'm scared that it will be viewed as a sign of weakness, a prelude to failure. Even this is a projection of my own fears.

I'm stronger than that, so I will share this with you.

I have been packing for this trip for over three years. I am finally ready to head out and start down the road and I keep going back to the house for stupid things - like more pencils and extra socks. Yes, I'm going to need them, but I'm pretty sure they have pencils where I'm headed, and I can pick up the things I've forgotten when I get there. The real fact of the matter is that I am absolutely petrified to take those first few crucial steps on my journey. I am caught in a cyclical "preparation" phase. Even now, I will revert back to "I have to learn this thing first" and "I don't have the exact right: art supplies, environment, lighting, software, puppets, etc... to even bother starting". Occasionally I will obsess over my perceived lack of preparation to a point of paralysis. 

The real culprit is fear

But fear of what? Of success? Of failure? Of both, at the same time? No. I believe these are actually high level justifications for my deeper fears. Our higher level brains mask these fears in layers upon layers of dignified, justified, rational fears. Excuses. Excuses. 

This fear comes from a darker age, from a deeper place that is even harder to find - deep in my lower, lizard brain. It is ultimately the fear of leaving the safe and secure world I know - where resources are plentiful, and I am already happy - to go out and face an untold number of unknown challenges of an uncertain dream. "No.", the lizard brain says resolutely, "That is a damned fool idea!".

I like to acknowledged these voices, and placate them if I must, "Look, you're still safe, warm, well fed"... Or I have to outright lie, "Suuuure, we can totally go back home later if things get too tough.". Then I kindly ask them all to, "Please sit down, and be quiet. Cause I've got a lot of shit to do today."  Sometimes, if I spot it and address it early enough, it's quick and painless. Other times, if I let it, this fight takes hours, days, months...

I can't say for sure, but I'd like to think, these get shorter with practice. I'll let you know when I get there.


Friday, December 21, 2012

Test Sock Puppet

Playing around with a sock puppet I just made out of a sock. 

Why? Because this is my life now.

Test Animation - Neck Scratch

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

PuppetSchool Pics

Here are some pictures from my class at The Puppet School (, and the making of my very special friend, Griffith "Griff" Mark.

Monday, December 10, 2012

My Little Monster

What a wonderful day spent with my new, lovely and goofy friends at
I made my first monster puppet. Still in search of a good name.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

December is my Thing-a-Day month!

My goals: Slim down my todo list; get to some long overdue crafting; and complete (at least) one art related project, everyday, for the entire month.

Today's Thing-a-Day: Sewed three burlap Santa gift bags. (says the Jewish girl)

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Test Animation - Wire Guy Desk Toy

First Test Animation with Simple Armature

This is my first test animation with my super simple wire armature and DragonFrame.

I am sharing this silly, two second video with you because it is important to me. One very short stop motion video and one very big step towards my future.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Stop Motion Animation Armature v1.0

Here's the simple build for my first stop motion animation, puppet armature. Template care of Andrew Loomis, "Ideal/Proportional Male".

Review of build:

  • Hands need to be replaceable
  • Waist wont bend much
  • Brass tubes could be a little longer all around
  • Glue tubes on with paint brush and before everything is bent (apply epoxy and slide tube over)
  • Need #8-32 compatible washers and lock washers for pelvis attachment and feet

Sunday, November 4, 2012

AM! Class 02 Week 05 - Homework (In-progress: Refining)

I haven't been posting much lately (much to my parents dismay); so here is it... my current animation in progress. Your feedback is welcome here :)

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Wasteland Weekend 2012

Post apocalyptic fun in the California City desert. Adventuring at Wasteland Weekend ( with good friends and great attire.

Thursday, July 26, 2012

First major low side!

Yea... that hole in my shorts, totally lines up with a most heinous road rash on my rear. Additional photos NOT forth coming.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012 Level 3 - Day 4

Here's some pics from my sculpt in progress from the course: Human Anatomy - Level 3 (with instructors Andrew Cawrse, Damon Bard and John Neil).

Thursday, June 14, 2012

AM! Class 01 - Basics and Fundamentals - Complete Homework Reel

This is all of the homework from my first animation class, AM! Class 01 - Basics and Fundamentals.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Photos from my ride :)

I got hit by some a**hole with a sling shot at mile 38... F**ker!

Otherwise it was an amazing ride!

Sunday, June 10, 2012

LA River Ride - 102 miles!

I did it!
6 hours, 35 min - 15.4 avg. mph

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At the 70mi mark!

And boy are my legs tired! 30mi to go :d

Sunday, June 3, 2012


Totally embracing my inner T-Rex!

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Sunday, May 20, 2012

35.13 miles

I hurt a little, not too much... and I counted at least 21 dead bugs on my right arm alone... *ew*.
Total distance: 56.09 km (34.9 mi);
Total time: 3:04:16;
Moving time: 2:28:26;
Average speed: 18.26 km/h (11.3 mi/h)

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Saturday, May 5, 2012

AnimationMentor - Class 01 : Week 06

My homework for AnimationMentor - C01W06 - Spring 2012 w/ Anthony Wong

AnimationMentor - Class 01 : Week 05

This is my homework (revision) from AnimationMentor - C01W05 - Spring 2012 w/ Anthony Wong

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Muscle leggings from BlackMilk

My new muscle leggings from Black Milk have arrived! Now I have something awesome to wear in this year's LA River Ride. (Yes. I know. They are not perfectly anatomically accurate, but hey, find me a better pair and I'll trade up.)

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

"My Sentiments Exactly" Project

It has come to my attention that I am in need of an attitude adjustment. A positive shift in perspective, and a more solid foundation of self confidence. A neurological rewiring, if you will.

Thus, the birth of the "My Sentiments Exactly" Project: I have written down and numbered 96 "Sentiments" on little slips of paper, folded them neatly, and placed them into a pretty glass jar.

sen·ti·ment/ˈsentəmənt/ (noun)
1) A view of or attitude toward a situation or event; an opinion.
2) General feeling or opinion: "racist sentiment".
Synonyms: feeling - sense - opinion - emotion - sensation

My "Sentiments" are one or two words, that I would like to be reminded of, attributes that I feel I already poses but often forget, or that I respect and would like to further explore.

The "My Sentiments Exactly" ritual is simple:
1) First thing in the morning, select five "Sentiments" from the jar
2) Choose the one I feel is most appropriate on that particular morning
3) Put that word into the "used" envelope, and the other four back into the jar
4) Investigate what that word means to me (in the context of: past, presant, future, specific, and abstract)
5) Do my best to live by that word throughout the day.

Today's Sentiment is: #20 - Understanding

And to help with better understanding, different points of view, here are two photos of the same scene, taken at the same time of day, from a slightly different angle.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Rachel, painter in action!

Four photos care of, Korpus School of Art + Gallery, all rights reserved.